You know your sick when. . .

You can identify six different animal shapes in your ceiling right above your head. You know your really sick when you give the animal shapes names. You know your morbidly sick when you think you seriously saw one of them move and call your husband in from the other room to confirm it hasn't!

My body hates me. It has given me nothing but pain for almost an entire year. If I could I would surgically remove my problem organs and all it's friends myself.

My brain loves me though. It has allowed me to pass out a couple times where the pain gets too unbearable.

My nurse is insane. She thinks it is all in my head. I am seriously contemplating the fortune cookie trick in "freaky friday" just to prove her wrong.

My doctor is very smart and nice. He has put me through a series of tests to prove his love for me as a patient. (However, to his credit, I know he is taking every measure to try and find out what is wrong.) DEFINITON: Barium, Noun. "White thick liquid that looks like a milkshake but tastes a blend of dirty shredded socks, dandelion liquid, ground up chalk, and licking the metal bars at the gym. Purpose is used for CT scans and to induce vomiting. Not to be wished on one's worst enemy.

My only joy in this entire experiance is my increased time snuggled in bed with Brian watching movies and the Office which I love. "Our balls are in your court, Bears Beats, Battlestar Gallactica." Priceless. . .

Maybe that explains the hallucinations on the ceiling.

hmm. . .

Tomorrow is my latest test. I really hope they find out what is going on. . .

Cross your fingers and wish me luck!


XOXO

Linds

Update in a Nutshell. . .

First of all,

I have realized that you can't help negative feelings, emotions, and interactions, but you can help how you deal with things and how you respond and act. I love this quote. . .

"As you take the normal opportunities of your daily life and create something of beauty and helpfulness, you improve not only the world around you but also the world within you. Happiness is your heritage." - Dieter F. Uchtdorf. . . Finding Joy

We celebrate our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY in exactly one month from today! Yeah baby! We will be going to California for a much needed VACA!!!

I just LOVE having my blood drawn! I mean, where else can you pass out twice, get free orange juice then throw it up, and almost faint walking to your car? LOVE IT!!!! :)

I am so blessed to have been such a big part of the day my best friend has her baby. It was really spiritual for me to be able to wait for little Avery to come from heaven! Congratulations mel, you are an inspiration to me, and will be an incredible mom!

Girls! I am excited for our Fancy Nancy party this week!

Also :( Brian just applied for a position in Irvine and Orange County, California. . .

Here we go again folks. . . .

My April FOOLS day disaster :)

So I have always loved April fools day as a kid. My mom knew how much I loved it too, so she would always know it was april fools before me, so as to expect what it was I was concocting!

Anyways, being a GROWNUP and all, I decided this year it would be fun to just trick her a little to see what her reaction would be. I guess this is because I was so bored and had nothing better to do.

So I got out my cell phone, and sent a text to her that said. "So Um. . . . I'm prego mommy." I waited like thirty seconds and send a second one that said, "Gotcha, April Fools!" Nothing happens for five minutes. I am waiting by the phone for her and nothing.

All of a sudden my phone lights up and I answer to hear its mom IN TEARS about how excited she is to be a grandma and how I will make the best mom and how I found out and when I knew, and if I think it will look like me or brian. . . etc.

Right about now, I was looking for the nearest cliff to jump off, or the nearest window to jump out. I couldn't believe she BELIEVED ME!!!! Didn't she know what day it was!?!?!?! Here is our little conversation. . .

"Well mom, uh. . . Do you know what day it is?"

"No dear, should I? Is today a special day? Other than the fact that your expecting!?!?!?"

"Well mom, its the first day in April and well. . . . I. . . . . "

Silence

Silence

Silence

"Linds is there something you want to tell me? sniff sniff. . . "

"Uh, did you get my text mom?"

"Yes! I did, I was so excited I called you the minute I got out of my meeting!

"Yeah, about that. . . Did you get both of my texts?"

"I just looked. No, just the one."

"Hmm, well. . . .

sigh

"Well Mom, I am the most horrible person. I told you I was pregant as an april fools joke, and now I feel absolutely awful about it. I really do, I didn't mean to trick you. I swear I promise mom, I feel so bad."

"I see. . . sigh. . . So let me get this straight, You are NOT pregnant?"

"Clears throat. . . Um . . . No. I am not pregnant."

"Well ok then. I guess will talk to you later. . . Its too bad, I was really excited and now I just kind of feel let down :("

How do you top a disaster like that? I don't think you can. I have learned my lesson, I will never pull a prank like that again.

Ty rewarded me later by letting me believe he won Brit tickets on the radio, vip and that he was going to let me and court take them. I was so excited I couldn't believe it.

I guess I deserved it

Happy April. . .

I guess that is why they call it FOOLS day. . .

P.s. Don't rely on technology to deliver any message. Especially when you need it to most!

Blah blah blah. . .

The sole and only purpose of this post is to vent. So if you are ready read on. . .

It takes alot to really anger me. I wake up happy, I go to bed happy, and I am pretty much happy all the time. I am a girl of many simple pleasures and lately, I have tried to be even more happy and thankful than I normally am. . .

So I have been soul searching a bit and making more time for spirituality in my day! It is not so I can be able to say that I can, but because I really feel like I need it and that is really making me a better wife, daughter, friend, sister, aunt, cousin, granddaughter, etc. In my opinion, it is hard enough living in this world trying to bypass all the negative aspects. And to say the least, I have really noticed an added abundance of happy :)

So what is it with all the FREAKING COMPLAINERS!!!! GEEZ PEOPLE!!!!

*I am not talking about people who have been through something awful and need support. I am not talking about those people who are sick, or afflicted, or need a shoulder to cry on.

I am talking about people who have it pretty dang good, and still need to tell all of us how bad their life is all the time, every day, 365 days a year!!!!!

I am not trying to be insensitive but it has really gotten to me! Why should I have to hear all the complaining when I am the one who is trying to be positive?!?!?!

For your reading entertainment here are my favorite negative comments lately from my favorite complainers. . .

My house isn't big enough. I just hate it, I hate where I live and I hate my yard, and I hate my walls, and I hate the size. I hate everything about it. I can't wait til we live in a mansion. . .

I only lost five pounds this week. I am so fat. I just don't know what to do, I loathe myself. It makes me mad so I am going to treat everyone around me like they are the scum of the earth. . .

My phone is so incompetent, it is lame and I want one with ALL the features, but I don't want to pay any more, I just want a nice new free phone. Like an I phone. Yeah one of those. . .but free.

I can't believe I just ate a cookie! I am freaking out! Oh my gosh what have I done!!!!! I will not eat anything that is not organic, 100 percent organic.

What have you done? Let me get this straight. . . Was it a deadly lethal cookie? Poisonous and all? Hold on, I am dialing poison control :)

I am so unhappy, I just hate it.When is my life not going to seem so miserable? All I do is wait for things to come around. Do you know how long I have just waited? FOREVER. . .

Gosh Linds, For the eight time this week, my coffee shop has messed up my favorite triple carmel machiato venti grande coffee delight shaken not stirred extra cream no sprinkles grand world special with lo cal low fat no sugar whipping cream. . . Do you know how horrible this is for me?!?!!

And my classic favorite?

Wait for it,

The ones who not only complain about one thing, but everything. Not only do they think they are fat, ugly, and sad, but they hate their house, their car, their marriage, their children, their job, their life. . . and they blame everyone for everything wrong in their life too. Or they blame god. They don't take any accountability for anything gone awry. It is always someone else s fault and someone else needs to fix it.

Yes, I know I have been laying the sarcasm on pretty thick. I hope you all caught that :) I guess I just don't see the point. After all, I know we all have a long way to go, and things to work on. I just don't see the point of dwelling on it 24-7 and telling everyone within earshot about it!

I can't imagine what life would be like without the little things that bring us joy. I can't imagine what it would be like to be that miserable, that you literally thought nothing in your life was good. To not know happiness even in the frustrating times.

Here is my solution for you. You don't need a new phone, new car, new family, more coffee, less weight, new house, better life, or anyone else to vent to. . .

In my opinion, You just need a good swift kick in the pants!

Wake up people, life is beautiful!

A Special Night. . .

I love my grandparents. Very much. I don't get to see them very often though because, well we don't live in sandy or cottonwood heights close to either set. Every time I see them though, It makes my day because of how fun they are.

Brian and I decided last week to see Nan and Pop. These are my moms parents and for any of you that know them, know that there aren't many people more delightful then Nan and Pop.

This is Nan and Pop and My mom and my parent's house.

She is the kind of Grandma that is always looking out for you, and wants the world to know just how wonderful you are! I think the last time her and I went out to lunch she told the waiter my entire life story while I was in the bathroom :) lol, She is too great! And every time my Pops leaves a message on my phone he tells me, "Linny, this is your poppy! Your favorite poppy!"

After getting dinner at the Golden Corral, (that is where Nan and Pop wanted to go), we headed up to go tour the Draper Temple. Nan kept insisting that she couldn't go because she has a really bad hip and doesn't walk well, or very often. I insisted that I would take good care of her and that she would be fine.

We pulled up to the temple in the dark, and admired how white and beautiful it was with it's lights and snow covered lawn.

I ran up to the entrance and got a wheelchair for Nan and brian and I put her in! You could tell that she was really happy, but kept apologizing to me that I had to push her. It was really cute!

The whole time we were in the temple I looked back to my sweet grandparents. They reminded me of children. Pointing to each other, smiling, and whispering about the different things that they loved inside.

And even though I was pushing Nan throughout the temple, pop always walked beside her and held her hand. Even if there wasn't enough room for him. She looked up at him with such an adoration it made me teary a couple of times.

Brian noticed too, because every time they would do something cute he smiled at me or would point to them so that I wouldn't miss it.

My grandparents love each other very much and have made it through a long life together. I am sure it wasn't always easy, but to see them now, still so much in love after sharing a life, was so special and really touched me.

I love spending time with them because they have such incredible personalities, but I realized too, because they teach me so much about what it means to love someone.

Nan told me a couple days later that if it weren't for us taking them they wouldn't have gone. Driving in the dark scares them, and the road to the temple seemed too far. That made me even more happy that we had chosen to go that night.

I feel blessed to have a temple so close and I am thankful I was able to share this special night with my eternal family in the place that puts it all into perspective. It is one I don't think I will ever forget.

Linds

So is it bad that. . .

I AM A SPACE CADET AND I JUST FOUND ALL THESE THANK YOU NOTES IN MY CAR FROM OUR WEDDING THAT I WROTE AND THOUGHT I MAILED AND DIDN'T MAIL, SO I JUST MAILED THEM?!?!?!?!?! IT HAS BEEN TEN MONTHS ALREADY!!!!!!

Oh my gosh, like you didn't like get your thank you card? No, like that cannot like be right. I like mailed them like a long like time ago like and you should have like gotten it. Did you like check your like mailbox like to see if you like got it?!?!!

SIGH. . . WOW LINDS. YOU HAVE REALLY DONE IT THIS TIME. . .

SO IF YOU ARE JUST GETTING YOURS IN THE MAIL I APOLOGIZE. . .

YOU KNEW I WAS "LIKE THIS" WHEN YOU DECIDED TO BE MY FRIEND.

THAT IS ALL. . .